—Cast no Shadow, Attica.
Truth to be told that she always has felt lonely. But she never cares about it, she always tells herself that she’s not lonely, she just love being alone. Being alone in a place where there is a lot of people, chattering or bickering about something.
She feels alienated. So she does it the easiest way. She pretends. She pretends that she’s okay with her being alone. She keeps telling lies to herself that she will not being left alone. Deep down she knows that in the end she will be alone, that people will die. Sooner or later.
Well, yes. She sounds pathetic.
She always has been hopeless if not pathetic when comes to certain things. Like starting a conversation with someone, admitting that she is actually wrong, and apologizing. Meh.
She is also bad with death. She always thinks that death is some kind of sick joke, that maybe all of us should have just laugh at it instead of grieving. But well, yeah, she knows that you never can’t laugh at someone’s funeral. That’s impolite of course.
Well, then, she will tell everyone who are willing to come to her funeral to just laugh. And pray. Of course you have to pray.
Well, she has never been good with death. Maybe that’s because you can’t never fake sadness.
—unfinished
*) Yes. My english is kind of bad. *grins* Spare me. Long time not writing in english, I'm a bit rusty.
